Lost In Translation

Same dream came again last nite, the night before, some other nights…

Already lost count of them…

They are all different dreams, but the similarities are there…

In the dream, it was still u and me…

No one else, it was juz us…

Didnt wanna wake up from the dream…

But finally i woke…

And back to the real world…

Which there’s no more u and me…

Yea, there will never be u and me again… ever…

Can’t seem to figure out how my feelings are now…

Numb…

Yea, i guess i’m numbed…

I saw that pair of eyes staring at me…

Looking so naive…

Sitting on the chair right in front of me…

I stared back into those eyes then threw a smile at him…

He smiled back…

Only God knows how it feels when i saw that smile, from that cute lil’ face =)

Juz that one smile had made my day…

Opened my mouth and striked a conversation…

"11-year-old, studyin’ and stayin’ in India with grandparents, here for holiday, goin’ back next week…"

Those are the things i got to know from the short conversation with the very sweet lil’ boy…

I handed him the small orange astronaut thingy…

He tooked it, said thanks, with that smile on the face…

He then turned to look at his mom… 

They had to leave, and we wished each other goodbye…

What a lucky mom she is to have such a good lil’ son…

It’s Dad’s Day today =)

Got an English customer today, he was with his daughter… When he was talking to me, the daughter was sitting in front of one of the pc, playin’ with Paint… He got his stuff then asked me about desktops we have in the shop… said it’s for the daughter… so i passed him the brochure and explain some of the stufs in it… Bla bla bla… Then he said thanks… And turned to her daughter and said: "Let’s go have coffee and choose your pc!" She was really happy when he said that and asked: "Really?" Then she jumped off from the chair and followed the dad… Heh! I just smiled… And felt something, but i don’t know what was the feeling?! But yea, there was a feeling… Weird eh :S 

So then, i texted my dad "Happy Father’s Day!"…

And, "he" crossed my mind when i texted my dad so i texted "him" the same thing too… Heh!

To all the dads in the world, Happy Father’s Day!!! =)

Damn baby
Just don’t understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you…

Listen and don’t trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here’s my wish list

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I’ll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’ll make you my whole life
And you’ll be my husband, make it right this time —- yeah the word husband sounds funny! Lolz!

Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin’ I’ll go, then I can have you for sho
Then you’ll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So don’t tell me what I’m feeling is make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn’t know what to do
I’ll probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn’t be alone because without you I’m sick

I don’t even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, I just want you to know
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin

"Hi sir."

"Hi."

"This is our in house notebook, bla bla bla…" Lolz, i started to mumble… And yea, he liked it…

"Dis looks great, but i’m getting it for my wife, so i’ll have to bring her here to choose which one she likes…"

"Thanks…" We both said.

And yea, he came again today… along with a Malay wife, a Malay dad-in-law, a Malay "Tudung"-ed mom-in-law… And what can i say is they are cool and nice people =) They spoke malay to me… Yay!!!

"He" came into my mind at that moment… Don’t know why, just him… Lolz… Hell yea it wasn’t a good feelings… And all i could do then was smiled, breathe in, hold my tears back… I know i’m great at duin’ that… Lolz!

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

:: Far Away by Nickelback ::

Those were the words i wanted to tell you… "So keep breathing, if i don’t see u again aite! And you know, I LOVED YOU ALL ALONG!"

I hate him, for coming into my life…

I hate the fact that he’s still breathing, I wished he died… When that time really comes, will i cry? Or laugh out loud? Or may be I am the one who shud sleep forever? And how would you feel when that happen?

I hate memories, good ones or bad ones, hate ‘em… Is there any machine that i can use to erase all my memories? Or shud i juz run into the middle of the road, get banged by a car and lose my memories?

I hate lies, and liars… Have I ever lied to you? None dat I can remember… So why did you lie to me?!

I hate promises, why did you promise me things you can’t give? Things you can’t do?

I hate to call you up, coz it makes my heart beats… Makes me feel like I was talking to a stranger, but we used to be so close together… How did this happen?

I hate myself for being myself… Can’t I stop being nice to other people and starts thinking about myself? Coz in the end of the day, it’s me who got hurt, not you!

I hate myself for not knowing the ‘real’ you… Everything that I know about you is not true… Now only I realized you were acting all along… And the truth is, I DON’T KNOW YOU AT ALL… when I thought I knew you!

I hate the fact that human dreams in their sleep…

I hate the fact that i am one of them…

I hate the fact that most of my dreams come true… (but only the bad ones :s darn!)

I hate the fact that i had a nightmare two nights ago… (when it wasnt me who watched ‘Black Night’ on that day *weird*)

I hate the fact that i had a BAD dream last night… (coz he was in it!!! Duh… I need a break!)

Lost control of myself last nite…

Headed bangsar wit my bestest gf, Joe Jumbol… rite after midnite…

STARBUCKS Plan cancelled…

Switched to DRINKIN’ SESSION wit her frens…

Everything was OK @ first, everybody was juz drinking and talking, and i was watching football…

Didn’t realize i drank too much…

DIZZINESS attacked me… Urghhh! Hate IT!

And yet we headed down to KL… for anotha drinkin’ session…

Dat was when i started to SLEEP on the table… Didnt really sleep, but i had to rest my head on the table… And my brain was working, so i heard wat people said, and wat was happening around me =p

Dey kept askin’ me if i was ok… Lolz! I WASN’T! I needed SLEEP!

Then we headed Mc Donald’s and i really fell asleep… Heh!

Finally, we reached home @ almost 6… *grin*

Went to bed as soon as i was home…

Dey asked me dis: "How long haven’t been drinkin’?"… I said: "I’m sorry, i didn’t drink much before dis… Coz i had a PROPER LIFE to live in!"… Slept early @ nite, woke up early in the morning, and headed to work, work’s done, then home, dinner, TV, and sleep again, and wakes up the next day… Peepz, dat wat we called a Proper Life yea? Lolz!

To Joe Jumbol, Najib, Razman, Edwin, and Dunga… Thanks 4 takin’ care of me last nite… Love y’all!

I used to think… "As long as you treat someone good, he’ll be good to you too." But the truth is: "No matter how good u treating him, he’ll never be good to you."

I used to think… "As long as you are being sincere to someone, his feelings for you will never change." But now i realized: "No matter how much efforts you putting in, things will never be as good as what you expected." 

I used to think… "As long as you love someone with all your heart, he will love you as much too." But now i know: "No matter how much love you give, in the end of the day he will fall in love with some other girl."

I used to think… "I will never fall in love again." But all the IMPOSSIBLES are actually POSSIBLE!